I am once again undergoing a treatment for the thyroid cancer I had removed Fall 2008. This time I’m going to have another radioactive iodine scan to see if any of the thyroid tissue has grown back.

The good news is that it’s a low dose of radioactive iodine, so I won’t have to be isolated.

The bad news is that I’ve been off my thyroid meds for four weeks as of tomorrow. Today is a bad day for me.

While I’m THRILLED the Saints won the Super Bowl, I find myself pretty depressed today and the only reason I can come up with is the lack of thyroid meds in my system.

My weight’s been going up. I’m also on a special low iodine diet in preparation for this scan, which means, in part, no dairy, no chocolate, nothing baked outside my house. While it sounds like a healthier diet, as I can have all the fresh fruits and veggies I want, my weight has gone up. I’m almost back over 170 which I don’t want to be.

I’m reading my husband’s book for him – critiquing it. I haven’t started working on a new book for me yet, but I have been thinking about it.

I’m just hovering on a fairly deep depression. I understand now how those who are clinically depressed could have trouble doing anything. That’s exactly how I feel right now. I would love nothing more than to crawl back into bed and stay there.

Of course, I’m a mom, so that’s not an option. I have to go pick up my son from school and we have to go to the grocery store as I forgot something on my last run. A couple of things.

Maybe after that, though, I can sit, read Beloved’s book, and find my happy place again.